josh i feel tremendously honoured that you spent the last six weeks of your holiday travelling with me...i had so much fun...you and your friends treated me like one of the gang...it was six weeks of living like a teenager which was so much fun and now that it is over i haven't an excuse for my behavior...which kind of sucks as i will not have anyone to blame for immaturity...oh well it's not likely to stop me...
i feel that i have learned so much from you...i thank u for that...i have learned so much about myself...perhaps i was able to do the same for you...
it's tough to single out one highlight as there were so many...things just flowed for us effortlessly...the travel was easy...laos and cambodia...wasn't it...
the retreat that you brought me to was an extreme experience that changed my life...i wouldn't have gone there if it hadn't been for you mate and so i am eternally thankful to you for this...i have no idea on how to repay you for this...i guess it's not necessary...just know that i will never look at things the same way again...you had said that your experience was quite a bit different and that is just as perfect as mine...the seeds have been planted and when the timing is right for you they will flourish...
we had such a quick good bye the last morning...well it was 5am and i will see you in vancouver in august i hope...we will round up the gang and drink a few beers...keep burningman in mind...august 27th to sept 4...maybe nat and howard will come too...
i feel that i should leave you with some great wisdom that will trigger great awareness in you and inspire something grand...of course this is my ego's vision...even though i will leave you with these few words...
you have everything you need right now and forever inside of you to make any dream come true...all the answers to all the questions reside within you...all you need to do is listen for them...we are what we think...we are our thoughts...
be aware of nature and bow to nature often...humble and meekness are not signs of weakness...exactly opposite...they are signs of strength like a tiger or an elephant...
if i were in your shoes i would ask your mum to show you the course in miracle books that she has...you may not want to read them right now...you should know where they are as i am sure they will call out to you at some point...
and with that i bid you a farewell...i love you so much and will miss your beautiful eyes and smile...peace love and rock&roll my friend...
rest in peace
mag19
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Hey Bro...
I keep missing you on MSN. Oh well.
Your saying farewell to Josh, and I'm saying "Welcome Home Son". Now that it's over, it sure doesn't seem like it's been 6 months that Josh was away from home.
It was a HUGE step. A wild and at times crazy adventure. I'm glad you were finally able to spend some quality time with one of my kids, and share in some of his adventures. It was a huge step for me too. It wasn't easy seeing my boy fly off into the sunset like that. For a first time traveler, he did more then ok. I couldn't be prouder. As you know, there were a few 'bumps' along the way. At times wondering if his return could come soon enough. Then there came a realization..... "Do have have to worry about my son, or should I be worrying more so about Mark?" LOL...
So far, I see great changes in my boy. He has an awesome attitude. A great outlook.
We saw the Doc today and went for a fresh x-ray. It looks like his injuries are going to keep him from Fire Fighting this summer. He just won't be healed enough in time. Actually there seems to be a lack of healing. It's a very slow process. I thought he would be devasted by this as he was really looking forward to working at Forestry this summer. But he's not. He's looking at the positive side of things. No commitments right now. Can go anywhere? Ton's of options. What an awesome young man he is.
And for you my brother? Be well. I'm hoping your keeping an open mind to all your learning. A 10 day retreat geared to tourist's should be a starting point only.
It seems that maybe you took 'too much' from that one retreat. What you think? A possibility? Do you get what I'm trying to say to you? Am I making sense?
Anyways.
Love Ya Bro. Have Fun. Be 'Aware'.
Speak soon
it was a wild and crazy time for sure and i would recommend you start saving so you can travel with josh and nat next year...
i wouldn't worry about me bro...i appreciate it of course and understand where this worry comes from...i will explain more when we are together...i am in such a positive time of my life nothing can hurt me except myself...and i don't want to hurt myself...why would i...
your observation about the retreat is understandable as well...i can see how one would think that such a dramatic change happened in 10 days...however i can assure you that it took much longer than that...the retreat helped me focus and organize what i have been learning over the last three years...really it boils down to this...
i am my reality...i decide how i see/experience everything...it is 100% up to me...and there is no separation in my reality...or in reality in general...in other words...there is no difference between you and me and plants and stars and table and god...there is no difference because there is no ego/self to add weight to each subject...
we can chat more when i get home in august...i would like that...you know i don't spend enough time chatting with you...or mum/dad.....
as for the retreat...it's a very strong source of inspiration...i have nothing but respect for the people there and their program...it is the real deal not a heaven for tourists...
rest in peace
mag19
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